22 drafts, but..

I have 22 draft posts. I keep starting, then abandoning. Starting, then abandoning. I have one about Christmas that I really want to get right but haven't brought myself to finish it yet. All this, but I just had to write and post something because of my current level of excitement. At this moment it is about quarter to ten in the morning and I'm sat on the top floor of the student wreck building. My first class of everyday is now at 8.30 and, yes, sometimes it's a burden but mainly it's awesome and the best part is that between 9.20 and 10.30 I have a free hour or so. No point in going home time-wise so I stay on campus. Something I love and never noticed before is the zen that exists on campus at these times in the morning and I'm finding them most relaxing. I have time to reflect, time to eat something, study if I need too but the best thing is having time to write and read. As of next week when my vocal lessons start again I will probably spend most of this time in the practice room but for now this last week and a half of 'peace hours' has been most wonderful.

This weekend that just past was wonderfully interesting. Christmas was stressful, but because of this; Returning back to Ephraim with Juan-Carlos and coming back to school has been something of a great soul healer. My classes are almost the same except that the morning times are different and I no-longer have to study human development (WHOOOOOP WHOOOP!) and instead chose to take my creative general and for this chose acting-1. I know what you're thinking... acting? really? you? talia, really!??!?! Yes, I know AND I agree but the things is that I love opera. And last semester I was in one, the singing didn't prove much of a problem and I didn't have to do a huuuuge amount of acting as I was part of the ensemble, but I was on stage and I worked out in that moment that I hadn't the foggiest idea or direction of how to be up on stage??!?! I also really struggle when it comes to building confidence in performing my aria's and every song you sing whether I like it or not has some kind of acting quality behind it. So I figured that out of all the generals to choose from in this category that acting-1 would be the most beneficial to me. ANYWAY so far (it's only been two classes) I'm enjoying it. Exercises are fun and there's only 7 students in the class. My point with this is that; I shocked myself this weekend as I had quite a bit of homework and was late on getting the text for the acting class - then on Friday afternoon, the teacher sprung upon us that we needed to read this particular book by Monday's class.

And this is how the weekend unfolded;
Friday night, I finished all my theory work, then Spanish work then started to read. Juan and I also managed to watch a couple of movies, take a visit to the temple Saturday evening and Sunday after church I invited my music theory teacher and her family over for dinner - (YES, I ACTUALLY COOKED A SUNDAY ROAST FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND IT WAS BETTER THAN JUST EDIBLE) (also, I love college because you can actually have friendships with your professors..!?!?!?) Anyway, I also managed to sleep all day Saturday till 5pm and on top of this still managed to read the entire acting book by Monday morning. Why am I sharing this? Because it has shown me that I am actually way, way more capable of life than I thought I was. And along with these extra 1hr10min slots of freedom I have in the mornings it has shown me that maybe I do have time to do the things I want to do as well as the things I feel more obliged to do.. instead of just fitting in, that which I feel I have to do. I've also decided to take the pressure off of myself in some areas. If I feel like not doing a chore (like a personal one) I just don't do it. done. end of story. #sometimesitisthateasy I'm learning all these little things but mentally I feel like I can do 2018 just a little bit better than I thought I was going to be able to. Still, it's only January 9th s so we'll watch this space and see what happens... haha.

Sending out vibes of hope and positivity to you.

​Peace my dears,

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