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JUST QUICKLY, BEFORE WE START; It's taken me a long time to write on my blog again. Sorry. Hello, how ARE you? If you were to ask me the same question I'd say good. Really good, and really busy at the same time. Separately to life (in which I will get into in just a minute), I have been reading a lot more blog posts by other people recently and watching a select few of my favourite vloggers which is both a good thing and a bad thing. A good thing because it helps to inspire me and a bad thing because I question everything I do and it's worth as content. I have decided something though. I have decided that although my blog may be amateur looking beyond belief, and despite the fact I have looked into other layouts and things etc, that I like it here at New Name New Life. It's comfortable to me and it means something to me because this is where I started nearly three years ago on my journey on a completely different life. Maybe in the not so distant future I will change things up but as for right now I have decided that I will post whenever and whatever I feel like and post it right here; with no real pressure on content because the reason I started blogging in the first place was because I love it. I have decided to pay attention to those creative urges and needs to get out a post and to just do. Still one of my absolute favourite mottos, but really it applies to nearly everything. Just do. Call it an epiphany or a new found bounce of confidence, whatever you like but I'm back. AND SO; To my main point. Recently I have had to say two goodbyes. Just two. Random, I know. But both have felt particularly significant. Goodbye #1 was last Thursday when I dropped my parent's off at Salt Lake airport and Goodbye #2 was on March 9th where I had to say goodbye to a character that I feel very in love with. Let me explain. In October of last year I auditioned for my college's production of Andrew Lloyd Webber's The Phantom Of The Opera, and much to my surprise I got cast as one of the lead roles; Carlotta Guidicelli. I couldn't believe it. I will be doing a separate write up of my time in Phantom and the craziness of me landing the role in the first place and the amazing experience that it was but needless to say that it has been learnt, rehearsed, performed and is now over. And boy do I miss her so much. I had never acted before and especially never been in a show like this before and it was incredible. Which leads me nicely into Goodbye #1.. as my parents decided that although they had not long visited me in the states (as you can see from the last time I posted) that they wanted to see me in the show and so they have been staying with my husband and I for the past three weeks and it was amazing. Don't get me wrong since I married and moved from the U.K. to the U.S. three years ago I have had to say some hard goodbyes and many of those have been to my parents but this time it felt different. Their whole visit this time felt different, it's hard to explain. They came over to see something I had achieved and I was proud to be able to show them and they were proud to be able to be a part of it all. The whole experience mixed with my sad feelings of saying bye to Carlotta and to mum and dad although sad, with both of their departures I can not help but feel incredibly excited about the future. Have you ever had feelings for the future? Feelings of like a backwards nostalgia? Familiarities resonant of the future instead of the past? Well that's what I feel. What's next? What doors have been opened up because of this experience? I feel like I'm on a journey and I can feel life picking up a bit. What's next. We don't know but I am very excited and so although I am grieving for a character I may never get the chance to be familiar with again and have said goodbye to two very special people that I may not see for years I can not help but be excited for what wonderful things might happen in the future that I will too then miss. Odd way to think I'm sure you're thinking but sometimes the saddest goodbyes can make for some of the sweetest hellos. Peace ✌️ (On the left; So Many Quarters My father and I playing Pool at the local bowling ally for his birthday. and On the right; Devilish Diva Me as Carlotta in her Masquerade outfit)
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