EVERY DAY IS WONDERFUL, STRESSFUL AND CRAZY. Every single day.
This above is my latest attempt at saving life. (As in saving my own life.) Dramatic, I know. For the first time ever I’m glued to a diary. I’ve tried before, believe me I’ve tried. The study planner DID NOT work. I love books and notes and stationary but I always end up just giving up as I forget to write certain things or to look at it in time and end up using my hand to make quick notes on instead. My temporary tattoo journal. I always assumed that written diary’s were the practice of forgetful old ladies and mums with a gazillion children with different schedules for each one. But alas, it’s for Music Majors too. I knew being a wife, house keeper and full time student would be demanding but add music major in there too and it’s freaking crazy. Everything normal plus things like; Rehearsals, Concerts, Recitals, Stage Painting, Costume Searching. The diary was the only way to go. Oh also, don’t forget the colour coded pen;) (I feel so middle-aged!)
Honestly, everyday I walk around campus and feel so grateful to be here in this strange beautiful farm town that no one’s ever heard of and so grateful to be studying what I love amongst some really fantastic teachers and students. However, it is so hard to stay on top of things. And no ball crapping - straight up - I’m finding being a married student very difficult. Juan Carlos has a different life schedule than me and he finds it difficult when he wants to play with me and I have homework to do or have to be somewhere for something or any of the other numerous other pulls going on.
Finding a balance has been hard, but I and We are working at it. Something amazing that has happened is that Juan got work at the school’s studio so twice a week I go with him and get an allotted four hours of homework time each shift. Then I decided on writing everything down. EVRYTHING. Then putting little circles next to them - if they’re filled in they’ve been accounted for, if they’re empty I need pay attention to to that thing. It helps me not to ignore my own writing. (I think that’s what I’ve done wrong in the past)I’ve found that it also helps to give myself a time deadline most days where I can stop study or practice and sit down with my husband and watch a tone of zombies attack people we love. (The Walking Dead is our new Netflix binge) And to see cooking as a break from study, rather than a chore helps us to eat meals.
I’m learning a lot about myself and something I think is really interesting is I’m learning how to use outlets to extract stress and working out and surprising myself with what works for me. Apparently creative writing or poetry, prose whatever comes out and whatever you want to call is one and I never knew this. My goodness it’s not at all good and I’d cringe at showing it to anyone I knew but it’s really helping me.
Showering for as long as I can is another one. And organizing my desktop is another. Just funny little things. I love singing but I do so much of it as a requirement nowadays it’s hard to see it as an outlet, which is sad but this is ultimately what I want so chin up. Composing however is still fresh to me so I’d consider this one at the moment.
This is kind of a mixed post. I haven’t posted for a while and all of the above will be factors why;) But my main point of what I want to share other than ‘I’m busy af’, is that I had no idea of the enormaosity in which you can learn about your own self and how you can use those analysations to better your life. It’s a true thing and I couldn’t promote the fact more!!!
A crazy post for a crazy mind.
Peace out Folksssss ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️
Brit. U.S.resident. Lover of Opera. Believer of dreams.