Sitting, waiting, wishing...

You have to have a goal, a friend and a dream.

We have been married nearly a year (give or take a couple months) and we're still residing at the in-laws. Juan is self employed, not always in work and my current full time job breaks off for three months (unpaid) in May.
We're in a bit of a sticky stitch. With great desire to move out.. we actually can't until I have some sort of credit score and Juan can show a tax return. These things all require some waiting.

We put my name on to a credit card at the beginning of this year and apparently it takes six months to build any kind of score, so right now I don't even exist in the land of credit. Juan has only been working as a self employed composer for around a year so doesn't have any W-2's to show the housing companies. Apparently us getting these two things are the very minimum of what we need to get a house. (Along with a rather hefty pile of savings to put down as a deposit!:/)
We've considered renting, but are hesitant as it's money going to no investment. We haven't completely ruled out further study (I am dying to get my music degree) and the possible accommodation that might come with that, but really we have no idea where we're going to next.

We have a plan A though. That's important. My life motto has always been you have to have a plan A and often a plan B but most of the time plan C; the plan that you never even thought of, will be the plan that plays out. In my experience this plan is usually better than what you could have conjured up yourself BUT (and there's a huge BUTT)... Plan C will never occur unless you put at least your plan A into practice and action! If plan A or B or variants of happen then that's great too, but one thing I absolutely stand by is that only nothing happens by doing only nothing. (Bit long for a motto really) haha.

I truly believe this though. My husband and I are religious and believe that god plays the biggest part in our lifes. Individually and together as a couple. So our philosophy is that if we play our part then god will take care of the rest. It's not easy sometimes to hand things over when our human, logical brains don't see a way in or out of a situation, or sometimes if we are doubtful, angry or have been hurt. But that's the very point of faith and why it can be made strong or not so strong. We have to trust even in the times when it makes the least sense. And I'm speaking like I am an expert, please believe me when I say I am not!

I do know that without God's hand in things I could not have done or been prompted to do all the things I needed to do in order to be at this stage in my life. Handing things over was not easy and maybe at first I was even hesitant to do so. Everything I did last year for example, was completely illogical, but it was right. I sometimes have a hard time explaining my actions to people but if it sits well within your heart, then you need to get on that train and ride it.

We have a goal. We have a plan A, which gives us little goals leading up to a bigger goal. Get my credit score in existence and as good as possible, get Juan a w-2 and save some money so that we can be buyer eligible. (The only thing that is a little frustrating with this plan is that these processes can't be sped up and involve a bit of waiting.)
​We have a friend. It's so much harder to do things and to get places without the support of a friend. A really good friend. Juan is my friend, support and partner in crime. And I am his. (maybe partners in legality might be more apt for this situation) and without one pushing the other to the next check point, life is both harder and a lot less fun.
We have a dream. Some people think that dreaming is dangerous. It gets your hopes up for something false. I fully disagree and what a miserable world this would be without our dreams. Isn't there a famous quote on the lines of 'everything started out as an idea' or something like that?!!? Ideas are dreams. Dreams come true. It's all around us. This isn't just a cute quote that can be fed to hipster, bohemian junkies, this is a fact. So the logical types can even hold onto it. Juan and I dream of having a nice place to live and to one day have children and to create a life full of musicality and creativity. To maybe work on musical projects together in the future and grow old in some place beautiful. I believe that these are attainable dreams. The pathway to them, wow I have no idea. But these dreams keep us going and give us purpose and motivation.

Well we'll keep on sitting on plan A and in the meantime we'll be sure to keep our dreams big.

Peace out.