But all we want to do is.. nothing.

January went quick, and for that I am pleased.

Back to work on the 4th and straight back into life. I've been in the US nearly a year and I can't believe how quickly that year has gone by. This time last year I was just preparing to visit my boyfriend for three months. To be able to come to the states I had to quit my job and sell my car.
Now that boyfriend is my husband, I am a permanent US resident, have a green card, a Utah drivers liscense, I'm a JH special ed. aide, a Sunday school teacher, I have 2 vocal students, 3 piano students and am involved in two semi professional choirs.
​Thats not bad progress. I need to remember that. I'm proud of myself for where I have got to but it does come hand-in-hand with a small side effect called 'tiredness'. Siempre estoy cansada!!

Juan suffers from this too, and together we are terrible influences on one another (and even worse, a part of us kind of loves that).

When I get home from work there's a ton of stuff I could be doing and a ton of stuff we should be doing. We have editing to do or I'll have lessons and music to prep or doing something simple, but productive like practicing Spanish or doing laundry etc. But, and what tends to happen, is I get home, we get together and as soon as one of us utters the words 'I'm too tired. Do you want to just chill tonight?' That's it. All potential productivity vanishes, the comfy clothes come out and we do lots and lots of nothing, together and it's the best.
But not a bit productive!!

I am in constant search of trying to find balance. Balance between work and rest, time on prep or learning something, time spent just with Juan, time found contacting people back home. Balance is hard. Something that has really helped is maintinaing organisation internally. By internally I don't mean anything metaphorical like in my mind or whatever. I literally mean inside of things..

i.e have you ever had or have that one cupboard that is always messy or, at a scan, maybe your room is pretty tidy but inside draws, wardrobes/closets, handbags it's complete organisational pandamoniam.
That's me.

But I've tried so hard, especially now as I have an extra body to help organise, I really try and keep things in order. Internally and externally. I purchased some yellow grid paper to make checklists on and it works a treat. I'm definitely motivated by nice stationary, that is no secret, but the natural tick boxes on the paper create a daily way for me to keep a score of the things I have to get done. On top of this, every Friday I get home from work early and dedicate time to tidy, launder and file!! File. File. File. File everything and anything. Mail, objects in the wrong place, clothing, lose bits of paper, everything.. Making and keeping the insides of my surroundings organised as well as the external has helped keep my motivational levels up massively.

There are still days I just want to come home and collapse in a heap next to Juan Carlos and shut out the rest of the world. But it does mean that there is hope. Hope that we can extend ourselves beyond wanting to do nothing together all the time! Haha.

My favourite thing about being married is having someone with my own mind to fob off the job with 24/7 but that's also the struggle... because you have someone that you want to fob off the job with 24/7!!! Haha.
We'll get there.. and if we don't?.. at least we'll have fun not getting there..:)

Peace.