What a start to the new year.. 2018 what are you doing love?!¿!

okay.okay.okay. WAIT.

the pictures above make it seem like I’ve had lots of spare time to do and take pictures of lots of self-indulgent, whimsical activities and add silly filters to them so they that they can be posted for all the world to see on *choose social media platform of your choice* right?
This goes to show JUST how misleading the internet can paint a persons life huh?
The truth, in fact, is that taking part in silly self indulged moments has acted as a massive escape tactic for me this month and let me tell you a little why.

Juan and I this week have had one of the hardest weeks I think ever?
At the beginning of the week - Monday - we went out for a “date”. (I put it in apprentethises because it always feels like we’re always on a date even when we don’t leave the house!) Anyway, I had the day off school (thanks Martin Luther) and we decided to go out. One thing I think is important to know is that where we live there is literally no where to go (unless you want to hug some sheep or milk some cows?) and if you want any good food that isn't the McDonald's opposite the college you need to go at least a little further than our beloved home that is Ephraim, Utah. ANYWAY, So we travelled about an hour out of the mountains to grab some pizza and catch a spontaneous movie. It was great.
Then, on the way home about twenty minutes away from home at 1AM we hit a stag. Juan was driving and freaked out. It really efffected him.The stag died instantly and Juan was hurt all along his left side, but I was fine. Although Juan was hurt we were both so lucky to be walking and I was so happy to be alive. It was all thanks to the car mind, flippin’ monster saver it was!!
We got home at 6am the next morning after the trooper came and the person who needed to collect the car and the ambulance etc. etc. But here’s were things get a bit crap. The day after this Juan is bed-ridden and then we get some awful, I mean seriously awful, financial/job news and then the day after that we find out that our car (our brand new car that we got a week before Christmas and waited two months for) had been written off simply because one of the airbag’s had deployed in the crash and that we wouldn't get enough money to replace it with a car even half as good:/. This put Juan into a massive funk and a subsequently brought me into one too. It’s not all bad, I mean money really is just that; money. But sometimes, even though you try your absolute hardest not to be dependent on it. Sometimes, it is. And that really does suck.
We've really been trying to look at the positives on everything we just can’t believe the crazy start to the year we’ve had. There is one other thing that I can not yet mention but could be really bad news too, and it’s also probably the most important. Sorry for the cryptic-ness of that. It's health related which kind of puts the money crap into perspective.
Well anyway - in the mean time I have been focusing on photo taking, music making and school work and that has been a wonderful escape. (as above photos do imply) I think scary-adult life makes me cling on to my creativity a bit more, so I’m pleased for that at least. Another thing I found out about myself this week is that dire stress makes me do housework. Like, A LOT of house work - it makes me do the three weeks of laundry I’ve been desperately avoiding and clean a bathroom that has been long overdue a clean and sort out that scarily large pile of crap that has been gathering and growing for months and that I have also been neglecting for months. So as I said, not all bad.

Anyway, desperately clutching on to the positives over here. How you holding up?!¿!

Peace ✌️